things are flooding in, work, feelings..eventually, numbness. problems crop up every now and then, but i thank God that they don't attack all at the same time..although they do come close to each other in terms of heart attacks and whatnots. i'm supposed to be asleep--i'm sure i've scared xiong enough on msn on what late-night-ros can evolve into--but i just felt like blogging here to say...jus to say some things on my mind, some thanksgivings to make. i'm very thankful for the little encouragements God puts in my path, very often i don't recognise it as His doing, i'm always looking at a very human perspective. but when i take a step back and really see i realise what a blessing it is for Him to put these lovely people in my life, to cheer me on and encourage me, to make me feel that everything's all worthwhile. people in the form of the 111 seven funkymamas, whose efforts and belief really spur me on. people in the form of friends who just lend a listening ear. and even the downs, the disappointments, the scares, they teach me things each day. they teach me the importance of keeping to my word whenever i make them, because there are people out there who really depend on it. they teach me that how i handle situations affects others too, in ways i would never have known if i didn't step back and reflect. i know i'm no expert, but i'm learning everyday. that's what life is about, isn't it.
orangu keeps telling me, it's possible, we can do it, it's just whether we want to! and to relak....haha. u may not know, it means alot to me. my mum came over and gave me a bookmark that day that her teaching leader at BSF gave her last yr tt said "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me." it came out of nowhere, and i know, it's God's way of saying "I care, I know. Here I am." i was close to tears. these little actions....dear God, i know You love me.
many things ahead, i'll work for them, no matter how daunting they may be.
because i believe.